“So no one told you life was gonna be this way 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼”
April 14, 2018,
I love how love has no limits. Whether you’re 18 or 80 you always have the chance of falling in love. When I was a little girl, like most girls, I always dreamed of my future wedding, husband, and family. I told myself I wanted to me married young. It’s so easy to make decisions until you’re actually living in that moment. Being a kid the age “twenty” seemed huge. I would definitely have my life together then. Well I’m nineteen and five months away from turning twenty. I feel good about where I’m at in life. Who I am. But unlike my mom, who got married at nineteen, I’m not quite there yet. I’m learning not to rush my life away. It’s different for everyone. “Their there” as a guy in my english class says. Maybe you’re ready to get married, maybe you’re ready for kids, maybe this or maybe that. I know that you can never be 100% ready for the things in life. As I am growing and maturing. As life is happening around me. I’ve learned to think about others. I’ve learned that I am important to people, just like you are. You are the missing piece to someone. You are the person that someone needs. That someone needs to know they have, can trust, and can count on. So at nineteen and being in love, I’m trying to think about my person. What is best for him. I want to be my best me, so he can be his best him. For me and my life, I’m not ready to be a wife. But maybe you are, and that is awesome. It’s so weird to grow up looking forward to certain events and days: graduation, prom, your wedding, having children. It’s really weird to be living in those moments. I’m in an in between phase of life. Where if you’re looking from the outside you would say what’s next for me is graduating college and getting engaged. I hope you’re right. I do know however, sometimes it’s not that simple. There’s a lot of little tick marks in between the big lines. I’m eager. I’m excited. I’m growing. Don’t rush yourself to be ready. For whatever it is. Don’t rush away your senior year, college experience, don’t wish away your life. Just live it. Prepare yourself. Be the best you. That will not only be what’s best for you, but for the people around you. I’m a person who has always had a five year plan. Relatable? If it were up to me within the next five years I will graduate college, get married, and possibly have children. But I know that my small plans are nothing compared to what His are for me. I know that His timing is better. We have to realize He is constantly shaping us and working on our behalf. So that we’re ready for our “there” when He places us in it.