My First. My First Experience with Jesus. Wednesday night my small group leader asked the question “What was your first experience with Jesus?” Most of us sitting there have been in church our whole life, got saved at a young age, but realized our first real genuine experience with the Father came years later. I didn’t even know or had never thought about it until that night. So here is my story…. My first experience with Jesus happened in a span from two years ago to last year. Between that phase of my life I went through a string of toxic relationships/friendships, I couldn’t seem to get it right it felt like. At the beginning of Summer 2016 I was blessed with the opportunity to go to Girls State. (whoop whoop ✊🏼✊🏼) That experience alone taught me a lot about myself. Its like the Father used it to show me what he had been trying to tell me all along. When you arrive at Girls State you are split into cities and those cities are made up of about 50+ girls. No one knows each other. I hadn’t had the opportunity in a while to meet so many new people in. I had no idea I’d end up meeting some of my best friends. On the night before we left, we all shared good things about each other. I don’t know what it was, but just hearing someone say ” You’re so funny, outgoing, nice, etc” settled in my spirit because I wasn’t use to hearing that or hadn’t in a long time. I remember feeling so humbled and happy like I never had before during that week. Three weeks later I went to camp, “Awaken Adventure.” During that time the Father revealed, or better yet I finally chose to see, what he was trying to show me for so long. God showed me who I was in his eyes. It canceled out everything I thought I was. For so long I had painted a picture of what a relationship was with someone and what I was to myself. I was insecure. I didn’t know my worth anymore. I didn’t know how to value myself. God brought that all back into perspective. It was like it all clicked and he said “Macey your relationship with me is more important than anything else. You don’t know who you are because you don’t truly know who I am. You don’t love or receive love you like you’re suppose to, because you don’t see how much I love you. You’ve been so blinded by how humans have loved you in the wrong way, that you haven’t been able to accept or understand the meaning of true love. I want to give it to you. I love you. When you know that. You can truly see me for who I am and what I am. You can truly love yourself the way you’re suppose to.” I remember coming to a point that summer where I said its going to be just me and you God. I’m not going to put me or anyone else in front of You any longer. That changed everything. He awakened so much for me. I grew in my relationship with him. I grew as person. It was a time I look back on and I know I was genuinely happy. I needed Girls State, I needed camp, and I needed that summer for me to truly experience Jesus. To be shown love— how to love and how to be loved. That summer changed everything for me and I didn’t even realize it until that night at small groups. I’ve said a million times that last summer was my favorite and that it was the best. Then being asked that question, it all made sense why.